Hey Love

My heart is hurting. I miss you terribly. I miss your smile, your burst-out-loud laugh, your stories, your quips. I miss our conversations, our disagreements, our make-ups. I miss your advice, your touch, your leadership in our home. I miss watching you play with Matthew, hearing you advise Dana and the two of you teaming up to send me to bed because I was sleepy and therefore cranky :). I miss seeing you get up early to read and pray, hearing you ask God for wisdom and direction, agreeing with you, praying with you and for you about your dreams, goals and plans, believing God with you. I miss your covering.

Sean, I’m so grateful to have had your love and to see our love manifest into a family we nurtured, disciplined and taught. You were my best friend and together we were joint heirs of the grace of life through Christ. Even though our years should’ve been plenty, I can’t help but feel overwhelmed at the thought of you being in His presence right now, Our Savior, the One whose love exceeds that of a parent, child or spouse; the One who loved you before you were “upside-down” :) in your mother’s womb; the One who welcomed you into eternity; the One I long for. There is no greater love.

Thank you for allowing me to experience God’s love for me through you, Bay. You taught me about the Power of a Praying Wife. Together we learned each other’s Love Language and what it meant to be One Flesh. You taught me that men really do have a “nothing box” and can literally think about nothing :). This Valentine’s Day and every day, I remember you.

I close my eyes and remember you in detail, your perfectly arched brows, the particulars of your face, the waves in your hair (not head) :). The sideburns that never would grow long enough to meet your beard. I remember your two-toned hands. Large bright palms, dark fingers, flat nail beds and nails that often needed trimming. I remember the security of your arms. Even still…
The smell of your skin
my soul inhales
and begins to dance
inside myself.
I am feeling you.
Yeah.
I am feeling you.
I remember.
Happy Valentine’s Day, Bay.
< Love you infinitely, ~ Your Wife “

Though my flesh and my heart may fail, God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Ps. 73:26
The Power of a Praying Wife, by Stormie Omartian, The Five Love Languages, by Dr. Gary Chapman andOne Flesh, by Bob Yandian are a few of the books Sean and I read. Great teachings! Sean also read The Power of a Praying Husband, by Stormie Omartian.